Heavy heart!!

What am I doing?

You give your resignation letter at you first job and get back home with no worries???

What am I doing??

Staying up to listen to someone just cuz u liked talking to them??

What am I doing??

You don't even know that someone..

What am I doing??

You are not worried about anything in life now!!!!

What am I doing??

You smile to see tat scrap from that someone?!?!!

What am I doing??

You said you are not gonna get close to anyone?!?!

What am I doing?!?!

You thought you'll never like anything from anyone?!

What am I doing??

You are crazy!!!!

Where is this going??

NoWHERE!!!


So yeah .. I've put down my papers at work.. Yeah felt so heavy after doing it... I was collecting these ordianry work related print outs and that's what they thought.. .but I took out my " resignation letter " How sad.. Its a loss for them you see.. apparently for me as well :) So yea.. Some better carrer move..

Life has to move on..

Ada pongapaa!!!

Dont judge anyone!!

For you!!!

Do not judge anyone just because you know everything in life. The one you've met maybe just one of a kind!!

All in good times!! 

God bless!!!!

Ada poongapaa!!

Yeah break me when im lonesome!!

Dont blame anyone!!! They'll change :)

Another piece of Random S**T

It's high time I should do something about my randomness.. I'm living my life so randomly that I haven't come across one good thing so far in the past three months.. Good thing for me is = An awesome day, an awesome day for me is getting all I wanted.. "All" for me is " Someone who could make me laugh, someone who can stand my non-stop talks, someone who can have lunch with me, someone who can come go out with me without any reason, someone who can bear all this randomness..

This reminds me of the song

Might sound too much for asking.. But, " This is what the Reality".. This is what I want..


"Oru naalil varkai ingay yengum oodi pogathu
Maaru naalum vanthu vittal thunbam thedi thodaRadhu..
yethanai koodi kanneer mann mithu vizhruthirukkum
athanai kanda pinum pommi ingu poo pookum

Pozkalathil piranthu vittom vanthadhavai ponnavai varutham illai..
kaatrinilay vazhgindrom muzkkalin valli ondrum maaranam illai..
irutinilay nee nadakayillai un nizrallum unnai vittu villagividum..
nee mattum thaan intha ullagathilay unakku thunnai yendru villainge_vidum..
theeyodu pogum varaiyiL theerathu intha thanimaii..
kaarai varum neram paarthu karppalil kaathirupom..
yerimalai vanthal kooda yerri nindru poRz thoduppom.

adu yennakku ethu unnakku ithayagaL podum thani kannakku..
aval yennakku ival unnakku udagalum podum puthir kannakku..
unnakkum illai inthu yennakkum illai paadaiththaavaanai ingu yedduthu kollvan..
nallavar yaar ada kettavar yaar kadaisiyiL avanay mudivu seyivaan..
pazRi podum ullagam ingay balliyanna uyirgal yengayaay..
ullagathiL Oram nindru athanaiyum paarthirupom..
nadapavai nadagam yendru namum senndhu nadithirupom..



>Movie :- Pudhupettai

>Music : - Yuvan


Seriously.. This song has lot of meaning and it's very much attached somehow to everyone's life.. But no one realises it..

Ok.. What was I sayin?? Yeah randomness.. I know how to stop this for now..

Music is the only way..

Hey, I guess there is a video on you-tube about vijay.. I think even he's pissed about something..

After all.. We have only one brain.. :) But how come everyone's thoughts sink together atleast once in their lifetime?? Don't call it " Co- incidence"...

Life is just Randomn.,..

Random"ing off......

Karthik :)

~ Never done this before ~

 Hey missed you all...

I had some bad experiences in the past few days... Like few days ago I had a bad day at work & ended up with a bad headache & day before I wasn't feeling so well the whole day & the very next day I wanted to get drunk after such a Long ( Long with a capital " L " ) time.. 

I was talking to this DJ girl who supposed to be an acquaintance and we turned to be really good friends ( If that's what I'm saying) and this girl plays music in hawana.. We haven't met like personally and all that.. But this time I was so very drunk already but she wanted to see me still, I knew that I'll make it somehow and yeah I went to see her... 

For her eyes I was looking like a 16 year old who was drunk.. I wasn't really feeling comfortable & we sat near the parking lot and we wanted to smoke.. We were talking yet and I was making her uncomfortable with my stupid talks and all of SUDDEN my stupid mind works weird and I actually asked her if she wanted to stay out ( No intentions at all ). I was feeling alone and wanted someone to talk with.. 

How stupid have I been? I'm hating this part of the life!!!! 

But, still life just goes on!!!

I need a change!!

ITS 22.03 and I don't wanna sleep!!!

Here to Apologize!!!

I'm so damn sorry that I missed out posting something on this weekend!! I was occupied with a lot of things and hey infact it was  " Oru nalla weekend ".. Btw to continue my previous i need konjam tima cuz I wanted to post what I exctly felt.. I'm leaving for work now and I was missing this so badly... Now I'm feeling " Apaada" I wrote something.. I wanna spend my own special time posting something here..

Oru good news.. A person likes my voice, the way I look, My hair, the way I dress & even the way I express myself... Never knew and thought Love was the last thing I had.. But this girl is in love with me... 

I'l react in my own sweet time.. Adhu varaikum konjam patience... I'm leaving now!! 

Poitu Varen..

Karthik!!! 

Hey, No matter what happens! I'm living with my memories still.. Please.. That makes me!

Face to Face with My memories!

It wasn't that difficult travelling alone, from the time I left home I was thinking only one thing.. Will I be able to face all the beautiful torture(The Memories) that I was gonna face..

The Train journey as usual turned out to be so hilarious and interesting at the same time.. It was some couple( 40 odd yr old ) from Pune and their love for each other was all over.. It wasn't difficult for me figuring it out, in that two tier A/c coach, he was holding her hands all the time, should look at that female's eyes full of happiness and cheers!



It was time for me to get down and I got down around 5 in the morning.. Kodaikanal was freezing.. I had booked tickets for the hill train and it was cancelled for some reason.. Some foreign travellers were upset and I told them it would save some time for them if they travel by car. They were only " OKAY " with it, that attitude told me how much they wanted to travel on the hill train.

While going with them in the car, I was taken aback that these guys were smoking weed as if it was some herbal product they liked the smell, they liked the smoke hitting their brain, but none looked they were stonned! I went " Aggghhhhh???!?!?!? " One of them even mentioned that they don't wanna get back to their norm life!

My car was waiting for me and I was so excited and HUNGRY!! I reached the resort and made myself so comfortable!!! It was 10.30 in the morning and I didn't have any bit of stress from the journey..

I took the car and it was so much fun driving your car in that city.. No signals, No smokes and you sure won't find any scratches on your car!! I connected the USB to the music system and it didn't read, Luckily I had some CD's with me.. I got lost in the music once again! :)

The moment I reached the restaurant- Memories flashed..

The Last time I was eating here, I wasn't interested in the food but was waiting for her call or message asking me to come to the place she was going to!!!

Somehow I managed to eat before the memories could eat my head!! I took my car again and drove to " Cooaker's walk". The First time I saw her on the rocks :) :) :) Memories!

Both of us were so curious to see each other and smile at each other!! But we missed out the timing but when you guys were clicking your pictures, you were only looking at me..
It was such a lovely place when u were around but looked all haunted this time....








I clicked some pictures there, ate " Sundal".. Bagged something for myself and family...
Reached my room again!!

Did I tell you where I was staying?? " The Green Acres Resort" Even though I wasn't there when you were around I was able to imagine your presence and I still remember the way you told me that you are " Feeling Cold "

How Will I ever Forget your voice?!?!?!

It was the fresh green lawn, the mist and the cold .. Cheering me up & I was living with all my heart......

I'm stopping right here for the first half of the day, I gota leave for work in sometime.. Thinking of writing about this.. I might end up bunking work.. I so love her memories!!!

Will be back at this soon!!

Bye now!

:)

Here I come again - Chennai..

Hey world..

I just got back home & I couldn't resist myself that I had a wonderful time for the past three days.. 

It would for sure take some time for me to get out this unique surprise.. 

My system some rest now.. I'll come back soon to share each and every single minute I spent in Kodai!!!

Hope you're doing good!!

Cheers!!!

Karthik :)

The Trains should depart in another hour or so..

I'm sitting here on my bean bag & listening to Craig David's - "I'm walking Away".

I'm feeling so relaxed and I could sense my whole mind at ease...

Not just beacuse of the fact that I know that I'm gonna have a long weekend..

There is no rushing things at all.. I got my stuff packed.. Just gota freshen up and put on my shoes & leave home with a smile.. :) :) 

I might wanna smoke after such a long time.. My inhibitions are not quite sure.. So let me 

confess-only if I Did!!!

& hey once again world.. I wanna wish everyone A Very Happy Valentines day!!

They say flowers & words are the best ways of expressing your emotions!!!!!

Convey it & Treasure the memories...

Let me see what I'll have here when I get back home...

Maybe my phone bill on my desk?! Lol.. I don't really have to think about all that now!!

I'l be back soon!!

See ya world!

Signing off!!

Karthik.

Valentine's Day :) :)

& all that comes with it.. Cupid has been nice to me every other time.. It goes for a vacation every winter..

This February I'm going to Kodaikanal, for the own peace of my mind.. After all this is a much deserved break for me.. No phone calls, No work, No client Calls, No mid-night nightmares, No polluted road for the next three to 5 days...

Kodaikanal is the better place to be alone.. For a guy like me all that I'd need is a CAR( Thanks Dhanu) A camera, Some cash and confirmed train tickets..

Oh yeah.. Talking about the train journey.. I'm not gonna forget this trip for sure.. Infact the last time I went to kodaikanal was for a total different reason.. This time its the other extreme..

Things change you see.. I'm just wondering if I should stay in Green Acres Resort...

Oh dear God.. I'm gonna love each & every minute there.. I'm gonna celebrate my love.. I'm gonna celebrate with my memories...

I'm sure not sad.. But my heart is sinking in the thoughts that I'm gonna go through..


Happy Valentine's Day everyone!!!!

Make the most.. Do something beautiful to your beloved ones!!

For me, its just the mist, fog, the lake and myself :)

I'm loving it...


Signing off me :)

I was over the phone with her for like an hour.... I was so pleased... She didn't talk a word.. Neither Did I.. The phone was kept down at the other end... I heard her talk to her mum & sister.. She was laughing ( its been two months since I heard her voice talking, laughing & commenting on someone).. I was so happy to listen to her voice.. So loving :)

I hereby sit and grasp those lovely moments I had with her..


Where is that girl, who used to clap her hands in joy at the thought of meeting me?
Where is that girl, whose hair was all was required to make me stare in silence?
Where is that girl whose hug could kill all pain, all sorrow, and bring joy to my heart?
Where is that girl, for whom talking to me was an addiction, not a chore?
Where is that girl, for whom I could gather the stars and hunt down the sun and moon?
Where is that girl, who used to dig her head into my shoulder and say nothing, and didn't have to?
Where is that girl who could force me into silence with nothing more than a touch?
Where is that girl who is like the cool summer breeze, blown in from the sea?
Where is my Ambie girl?
Wherever she is, I hope she is happy. That is all I've ever wanted for her.

As for me, I will live in her memory for as long as I am alive. In my heart, she is mine.
And nobody will ever take her place. Ever. And Ambie girl, you would not understand why I did the things I did, or said the things I said. Some day you might. Until then, I wait;


My heart forever belonging to you.


Aks!! Forever

THIS DESCRIBES ME BETTER!!!

~ Shutter opens once again ~

P:S - This post is totally irrelevant to the content here!! (SO WHAT??) I have a point!!!

"Observed enough" is what came to my mind when I could read people's mind by their gestures.
I've been observing a lot lately, now I'm in this phase of life where I'd even guess whats on Barrack Obama's mind.

All I've got to do is just" Observe" him for a day or two & thats it, I'd be his " Fortune".
If he is gonna go against my thoughts that would be his first crime officially. :P

Im no JESUS! Im no SAI BABA! Im no KALKI AVATAR!!

Im just another guy next door whose come back from work and happy about something & i'm just talking my mind!!!

Alright.. The reason why I'm here is to cheer up myself and pat my own arms , also to scream

" Wohoooooooooooo" & finally

I'm getting a new camera tomorrow & the Kid inside me says ( Guess what?!?!?! Its a professional camera, Buhahahahhhahahahah ) Shut up KID! Im happie!!!

Pweff!! I lost a camera a month ago & lost SO MANY UN-CONDITIONAL THINGS ALONG WITH THE CAMERA!!


I'm really happie about this fact that i'm able to differentiate my thoughts!!

The Kid & The MAN!! ( Ain't a male species )

Probably, next time when I'm blogging I'd come with some pics!! ( SURE)

It really doesn't have to breeze, It doesn't have to rain, It doesn't have to look all romantic, I don't need a location , I don't want enough lighting( I got photoshop for that "GULP").

All I need is my beautiful camera to open its shutter when I " CLICK"

You really don't have to say " Cheeeeeeeeeeeeeze" for a pic!!!!!

You can never tell your name with a straight face!!

Try saying your name when posing for a pic and see the pride on your face when the picture comes out!! You really don't have to smile all the time in front of the camera!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you've already tried the" straight face trick" even inside your mind, You've lost!

That's how much I've read everyone's mind!!

THE SHUTTER WILL OPEN VERY SHORTLY!!!

Signing off for now!!!

Karthik! :)

Orku-titanic

TITANIC SONG...version1.6

orkut orkut orkut thats in everyones mind. I am a active orkutter and now presenting 2 u a famous song from the movie TITANIC with a little of change.....go notice and apply some thought.


Every time in my orkut
I see you. I scrap you.
That is how I know you go on.
Far across the Scrap Book
And testimonials between us
You have come to show yourself “ single”.
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the friends list does go on

Once more you logged on
And you're here in my scrap book
And my scrap book will go on and on

Testimonials can touch us one time
And last for sometime
And never let go till we're friends
Love was when I saw your friends list
One true time I hold to
In my life I’ll surely view her/his profile
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the friends list does go on

Once more you logged on
And you're here in my scrap book
And my scrap book will go on and on
There is some amazing profile that will not go away

You're here, there's so much to fear,
And I know that my friend will know I checked her/him out
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my friends list
And my friends list........

Metallica - Nothing else matters( As I thought)

So lone, as i feel its hard

couldn't see my future in the dark

passing days and their worthless hours

everything shattered

never wanted, to be this way

life is over, if its going this way

all these years were of tasteless days

and everything shattered

trust in self is the thing in you

every day is for you to rule

open mind for a different view

and nothing else matters

never dream for changing past

never lie for what is true

and i know

PS: kinda wage but that's the charm
PS: I just love this song, all time favorite
PS: The song is w.r.t to my juiciness in life; which makes me feel as a looser, its going good but I'd want each and everyday of my life to be interesting (now that's life!!!)
PS: By any chance if "Hetfield" is reading this..;-)...get inspired dude...

Quoted for real......

Different people.. Different thoughts.. I tried being everyone possible..

"Love: as it says the

ORIGINAL QUOTE

If you love someone,
Set them free...
If they come back, they're yours,
If they doesn't, they never was....

THE NEW VERSIONS.....

Pessimist:

If you love someone,
Set them free ...
If they ever come back, they're yours,
If they doesn't, as expected, they never was

Optimist:

If you love someone,
Set them free ...
Don't worry, they will come back.

Suspicious:

If you love someone,
Set them free ...
If they ever comes back, ask them why.

Impatient:

If you love someone,
Set them free ...
If they doesn't come back within some time
forget them.

Patient:

If you love someone,
Set them free ...
If they doesn't come back, continue to wait
until they come back ...

Playful:

If you love someone,
Set them free ...
* If they come back,
and if you love them still,
set them free again! * repeat *

My girl is Lucky! Where the hell on earth are you??!

~Deja Vu~

I have lived before and I have died too,

I have laughed before and I have cried too,

I have loved before and hated too,

But when it comes to you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh there is no deja vu!!

Let the Phoenix ever, Rise!

No we need no love,
No reciprocated, No requitted.
No we need no care no soul,
The deaf, the blind, dearly reflected.

No we need buy no hollow hearts, no cooked up praise,
Those Darkness smeared, those disguised face.
Yes, no wonders heavenly, no untouched embrace
No euphoric smiles in unworthy disgrace


Please sprout up no died up hopes
No floral dreams; No fantasies Nopes.
No heal no our unforgotten pain,
Nor build up our long worn out faith .


No stop us not to burn in the ever burning zeal
Every inch , every moment of our lives
In to the ashes of history,and from it
But please, let the phoenix always rise.

8002- Wish it was So!!

Well, 2008 is over??!?!?!?!

Hey, I was just reading about the freaks who fell down in the pool when the "pool deck" was molested by the fat grown by the so called " Party Freaks"

Now here I am.. Reading another prom. on the paper..

" Checkers" New years Bash..

• Sizzling pole dancing
• Hawaii night
• Unlimited Indian Liquors ( Wondering whats the best brand one would get)
• Pool deck on the 10th floor ( Ivanunga thirundhave maataannunga)

Grrrr... Im kinda irritated about this late night pubs and everything..

House parties are more fun.. Known faces... Leg pulling... Limited booze.. Awesome food...
Dancing in the lawn..

If you're committed, you can totally forget about these late night parties...

Things to do on the new year eve === > This is for the world to know!

• Be over the phone as much as possible... ( Incomings appreciated)
• Avoid messaging ( You're CHARGED with due respect)
• Be with the Family
  
• See the exitment in the faces when the colck hits 00:00
• Pray
• Take a resolution ( Let it be " I'll for sure take a better resolution next year")
• Avoid binge drinking
• Eat more
• Hug someone you love the most( If its granny, Dont squeeze her)
• Love All..
• Put up a smile on your face.. No matter what..

The world is yours..

This is for me!!! :) :) :)

• Im not here this new year!!
• Im leaving on a JET PLANE ( would be the song in my I-pod)
  
• Flying to Singapore
• Laptop is with me 24/7
  
• For a project
• Stepping down from the plane by 11
• 1 hour time difference
  
• Got to carry two clocks :)
  
• Gonna miss everyone here
• It would be more fun being here
• Thats ok
• I wanna see how Singapore celebrates new year!!!
  

After all this is just another NEW YEAR!!!

Happy new year Blog!!

Signing off!!

ME!

Need Help!!!

Well, Didn't go anywhere on a sunday Evening.. Got to get used to this I believe!! I was warching Anjana on jackpot!! It was fun.. When I was tuning channels.. There was a footage about kids in Africa!! 

What else.. Writer's itch!! Im here to put some sense to one and all :)

If you're gonna think you're good enough to save yourself with all the money you have!! Listen to me!! I've got something for you!
Being poor is knowing exactly how much everything costs.
Being poor is getting angry at your kids for asking for all the crap they see on TV.
Being poor is having to keep buying cars for 5 lakhs because they're what you can afford, and then having the cars break down on you,
because there's not an 5 lakhs car in Jarkhand that's worth a damn.
Being poor is hoping the toothache goes away.
Being poor is knowing your kid goes to friends' houses but never has friends over to yours.
Being poor is going to the restroom before you get in the school lunch line so your friends will be ahead of you and won't hear you say "I get
free lunch" when you get to the cashier.
Being poor is living next to the freeway.
Being poor is coming back to the car with your children in the back seat, clutching that box of stupid same old " rasam sadam" you just
bought and trying to think of a way to make the kids understand that the box has to last.
Being poor is wondering if your well-off sibling is lying when he says he doesn't mind when you ask for help.
Being poor is off-brand toys.
Being poor is a heater in only one room of the house.
Being poor is knowing you can't leave 50 /- Rs on the coffee table when your friends are around.
Being poor is hoping your kids don't have a growth spurt.
Being poor is stealing meat from the store, frying it up before your mom gets home and then telling her she doesn't have make dinner tonight
because you're not hungry anyway.
Being poor is Goodwill underwear.
Being poor is not enough space for everyone who lives with you.
Being poor is feeling the glued soles tear off your supermarket shoes when you run around the playground.
Being poor is your kid's school being the one with the 15-year-old textbooks and no playground.
Being poor is thinking 100/- an hour is a really good deal.
Being poor is relying on people who don't give a damn about you.
Being poor is an overnight shift under florescent lights.
Being poor is finding the letter your mom wrote to your dad, begging him for the child support.
Being poor is a bathtub you have to empty into the toilet.
Being poor is stopping the car to take a lamp from a stranger's trash.
Being poor is making lunch for your kid when a cockroach skitters over the bread, and you looking over to see if your kid saw.
Being poor is people angry at you just for walking around in the mall.
Being poor is not taking the job because you can't find someone you trust to watch your kids.
Being poor is the police busting into the apartment right next to yours.
Being poor is not talking to that girl because she'll probably just laugh at your clothes.
Being poor is hoping you'll be invited for dinner.
Being poor is a sidewalk with lots of brown glass on it.
Being poor is people thinking they know something about you by the way you talk.
Being poor is hating that 10/- Rs raise on fuel.
Being poor is your kid's teacher assuming you don't have any books in your home.
Being poor is crying when you drop the little food on the floor.
Being poor is knowing you work as hard as anyone, anywhere.
Being poor is people surprised to discover you're not actually stupid.
Being poor is people surprised to discover you're not actually lazy.
Being poor is a six-hour wait in an emergency room with a sick child asleep on your lap.
Being poor is never buying anything someone else hasn't bought first.
Being poor is having to live with choices you didn't know you made when you were 14 years old.
Being poor is getting tired of people wanting you to be grateful.
Being poor is knowing you're being judged.
Being poor is deciding that it's all right to base a relationship on shelter.
Being poor is knowing you really shouldn't spend that buck on a Lotto ticket.
Being poor is hoping the register lady will spot you the dime.
Being poor is feeling helpless when your child makes the same mistakes you did, and won't listen to you beg them against doing so.
Being poor is a cough that doesn't go away.
Being poor is knowing where the shelter is.
Being poor is people who have never been poor wondering why you choose to be so.
Being poor is knowing how hard it is to stop being poor.
Being poor is seeing how few options you have.
Being poor is running in place.
Being poor is people wondering why you didn't leave.
Being POOR is atleast possible once in your Lifetime!!
Help the POOR.. Please!